abandon (phoenix)

Don’t leave me, please
Don’t leave me, you begged me
Curled up in a ball
Atop my messy queen size bed
That was way too big for you
To just be lying there
And way too small
For your request

I smiled, thinking I understood
And reassured you with all my might
There was no need for such a plight
As I was here my dear,
Not going anywhere

Don’t leave me, please
Don’t leave me, you moaned
In your deepest of sleep
As I lay there in a heap
Right awake and pondering
When you planned to leave me
Instead

So when the day came that you did
I could only do as I saw fit, and bless
Your path with all things infinite
Including, yes, my love for you
And as best as I could, my love, I did

Now, so many moons down the track
You wonder if I’d take you back
There is no back with us my dear
There’s only forward, only here
I am near, not going anywhere
Until I come to understand exactly
How it got to be the way it is
And let go of all that seemed amiss

I will not abandon myself now,
Nor will I abandon you; I merely
Know what I’m committed to
And so the only thing I’m leaving
Behind, with reckless abandon
In my heart and mind, is my
Attachment to the outcome of
You and me, or what will be

So come what may
I’ll be okay
And so will you
And we’ll be, too.