abandon (pegasus)

twisting in circles
trying to see my own face
eager to chide
reproach and condemn myself
for lack of fill in the blank
and yet I wonder

just as it is easy
to love bravely
to bare everything
with reckless abandon
knowing I will leave
and so risk little, really

so must it be easy
to fall in love
to surrender to passion
and then to be abandoned
knowing all along I would not stay
and suffer safely, left untested

for what would you do
what would you really do
if I really called your bluff
with purest joy
and true abandon
gladly traded one future
for a lifetime next to you

could you really hold me
could you really risk it all
and I mean all
the same you ask of me
and love me the way
you know
I would love you in return

or would you falter
balk at real love
and abandon me
your anguishing bravado
crumble and reveal
it was merely
a comprehensible and familiar
victim's pose
your protective clothes
and never risk at all
and never love at all