punish (pegasus)

I can't believe I'm good enough
And so I punish me
And so I punish you for loving me

I can't agree I'm pretty enough
And so I punish me
I take my body and go and run
Attack the gym 'til I collapse
I can't relax and love my food
Consult the scale, that makes you laugh
I fix my hair and heave a sigh
At my reflection in the lift
You tell me that I must be blind
But you didn't know me when
And you didn't hear her say
And so I punish me
And so I punish you for loving me

And I can't feel I've lived enough
And so I punish me
No, I've never seen her film
No, I've never heard his songs
Don't know the latest Japanese author
(No, the other one)
I've never chased a monkey
From my flat in Colombia
I grew up in a humble nowhere
In a house with bare white walls
And so I punish me
And so I punish you for loving me

It's hard to trust I fuck you well
Or fuck you hard enough
And so I punish me
You come and coo and smile at me
You claw me like I'm prey
Your body arches at my touch
Glistens with our mingled sweat
We doze entangled, in ecstasy
And make love in the morning
You say it's never been like this
Can I be sure that it's enough?
I've heard you with your maenads
And that scene that's in your novel
And so I punish me
And so I punish you for loving me

And I'm not always strong enough
And so I punish me
Don't force me to be flawless
Don't put me on a throne
Don't make me your last hope for men
Just see me, trust me, understand
Don't approach me like a man
Don't give me reason and evidence
Almost always this is not my truth
But today, right now, my love, it is
And so I punish me
And so I punish you for loving me

I can't believe I'm good enough
And so I punish me
Know better, but I punish me
Don't want to, but I punish me
And so I punish me
And so I punish you for loving me